Monday, July 9, 2012

Time flies when I'm with you

this summer has flown by and i can't believe i only have another month with you
time stands still when i'm without you, and passes by so quickly when i'm with you

we've said goodbye to you 4 times in the past 19 months

four times we shook as we hugged each each other at the airport in Guadalajara
four times i had to tell Dylan that he wasn't going to see his daddy for awhile
four times i cried all the way to salt lake city
four times i walked back into our empty home without you
four times i skyped with you to tell you we made it home safely
four times i had to see that look on your face through the computer that i can't bear

i know there is a plan for us, but why do we have to be apart
i know we will be together for eternity after you gain a testimony of the church
i know these months without you should be bearable because of the knowledge of eternal families
i know the right decisions are so hard to make
i know we've talked with countless lawyers who say there is nothing we can do
i know there is little hope for changes in the laws
i know the consequences of bringing you home illegally and yet it crosses my mind daily

on august 11th we will say goodbye to you for a fifth time
i cannot take looking in our sons eyes while he cries out for you
Lord give me the strength i need to be there for our son




3 comments:

Missy said...

If nothing else, I can be here for you, Chi. I know that the Lord has a higher plan for your family and know that you will all be blessed for your endurance.
We love Ger, We love you, We love Dylan.
I know this is hard, but in either place you are not alone.
You have your family around you everywhere you go.

mrs. [jeremy] bodtcher said...

you have your family and you have your friends. Christie you bring me to tears with how strong you are. There is a plan for your family. I love you.

GlendaHotMama said...

What a beautiful tribute to your love and to Ger. Smile thru this and keep looking for that rainbow. It is always there after the rain.