Time flies when I'm with you

this summer has flown by and i can't believe i only have another month with you

time stands still when i'm without you, and passes by so quickly when i'm with you

we've said goodbye to you 4 times in the past 19 months

four times we shook as we hugged each each other at the airport in Guadalajara

four times i had to tell Dylan that he wasn't going to see his daddy for awhile

four times i cried all the way to salt lake city

four times i walked back into our empty home without you

four times i skyped with you to tell you we made it home safely

four times i had to see that look on your face through the computer that i can't bear

i know there is a plan for us, but why do we have to be apart

i know we will be together for eternity after you gain a testimony of the church

i know these months without you should be bearable because of the knowledge of eternal families

i know the right decisions are so hard to make

i know we've talked with countless lawyers who say there is nothing we can do

i know there is little hope for changes in the laws

i know the consequences of bringing you home illegally and yet it crosses my mind daily

on august 11th we will say goodbye to you for a fifth time

i cannot take looking in our sons eyes while he cries out for you

Lord give me the strength i need to be there for our son

Dear Dylan

You are growing up so fast and I don’t want to forget any of these special moments with you.  You love your mom and dad so much and we love you.  You have seen and done so much in your short life.   You have more stamps in your passport than most adults. 

When we are in Utah you are accustomed to talking to your daddy on the computer. You are always a little confused when we transition from one place to another.  When we first came to visit your dad in Mexico you were so excited!  You woke up in the middle of the night and said, “hi mama” then you heard a strange man in our bed and yelled out (at 3am) “look who it is!  It’s dada!!”  Priceless!

You love all your family both in Mexico and in the U.S.A.  You are the most patient little boy and I am so glad that you constantly remind us how lucky we are.  It’s not easy to feel blue when we are with you. 

You talk so much and say the funniest things.  You call your dad baby or babe because that’s what your mom calls him.  You love ice cream and peanut butter and ask for them multiple times a day.  You used to be such a good eater but now all you want is sweets!  Not cool.  Hopefully this phase will pass. 

You currently speak more Spanish than English. 

My favorites: 

Aquí aquí aquí!!! (you mean right here...you say this A LOT!!)

Ayúdame (help me)

Te ayudo (can I help you, but you mean, help me)

Pobrecito (por baby)  you say this to pets while you torment them

 “on tas” (donde estas)

"mi mis"  (dormido--go to sleep)

You wake up in the middle of the night and say, “more milk!  More milk!”  Sometimes you say please…sometimes

I'm convinced that you think you are a tiger.  You chase your primo's around for hours and growl at them.  They are very patient with you and take good care of you.

You love to walk like Mogeley from the "Jungle Book".  

You are addicted to technology just like your mom.  I can't punish you for it because I am just as bad.  You know how to open Netflix and start your movies on the iPad.  You know how to call people on my cell phone.  You call a lot of people but to you they are all Nana.  

We love you so much Dylan!